I guess you could say my break up was more than just a break up, it was like letting go of a part of me that I didn't want to let go of. And I still can't ignore him as much as I'd like to, which is making it even weirder, because now we get along so much better this way. For some reason I can't exactly just forget him and move on the way I'd planned to, or "cut the cord" so to speak, because in reality I'm seeing more and more why I loved him in the beginning. I feel like my head is in this place of "Forget him, you don't need anyone," and my heart is more along the lines of "Don't do this, you can't live without a piece of him in you're life," and I hate the feeling of being tugged in two different directions. I don't want to hurt him, and at the same time I'm trying to look out for my best interest, and it's getting more and more difficult to differentiate between what I want or even what's right. Bleh, why can't this stuff just be easy?..